A Merry Sad Christmas~ TT.TT

Sigh.... Christmas ends......
Well, wasnt a happy 1 nway... gt some serious scoldings, due to trivial matters....
No family gatherings.... although Christmas was quiet... too quiet..... well, after the scolding, that is...
I shall remember to FORGET this Christmas......

To all,
Merry Christmas, and dun have a sad one...

Ja~!

（￣へ￣）

The Washing Machine of Time!~!

(The cute washing machine~!!)

Time flies so fast... like puttin clothes inside the washing machine.... gt the *krung krung* noise, the shaky shaky vibrations, damn a lot of noise, so much soap, n water!!! XDDD

SO many happy times....
SO many sad times...
SO many emo times...
SO many fun times...

But time jz throw it pass~~ until next year, like the clothes finished washing

Christmas will come, then new years... then all over again....

But i am happy!!

Ja~!

A Song For My Broken Heart, and A Dedication To All S3

Another song~!

Title: Anata ga koko ni iru riyuu wa
(The Reason Why You Are Here Is)

(English)

If I sing at night, I'll be swallowed by the darkness.
The morning light shines on that moment.
The light won't reach--no, that's not it,
The door is already open.

If I feel satisfied, I become worried.
If I cry, that's a kind of happiness as well.
Joy also comes
From being able to rise once again.

Ah, if I just take a step with all my heart,
I merely absorb the impatience.
The reason you are here now,
The sound of this rainfall knows.

If I spoil on you, there's something lacking.
If it's by my side, it becomes invisible to me.
You don't realize--no, that's not it,
I understand so much it hurts.

Ah, when I show my pride with all my heart,
I merely take it in, even in this moment.
The reason you are here now,
This evening sky knows.

I desire what I don't have.
What I don't have,
You do.

Ah, if I just take a step with all my heart,
I merely absorb the impatience.
The reason I am here now,
I'll search for it from now on as well.

(Kanji)

夜に歌えば　闇に飲まれて
朝の光が　それを照らす
届かない　そうじゃない
扉はもう開かれてる

満たされれば　不安になって
泣いていれば　それも幸せだ
そこからも　もう一度
立ち上がる楽しみがある

ああ　踏み込むだけ　思いっきり
吸い込むだけ　この焦燥感を
あなたが今ここにいる理由は
この雨音が知ってる

甘えていれば　欠けるものがある
そばにあれば　見えなくなる
気付かない　そうじゃない
痛いほど　分ってる

ああ　胸を張って　思いっきり
吸い込むだけ　この瞬間にも
あなたが今ここにいる理由は
この夕空が知ってる

ないものねだり
私にはないものを
あなたが持ってるはず

ああ　踏み込むだけ　思いっきり
吸い込むだけ　この焦燥感を
私が今ここにいる理由を
これからも探してる

(Romanji)

Yoru ni utaeba, yami ni nomarete
Asa no hikari ga sore wo terasu
Todokanai, sou jyanai
Tobira wa mou hirakareteru

Mitasarereba, fuan ni natte
Naite ireba, sore mo shiawase ga
Soko kara mo, mou ichido
Tachiagaru, tanoshimi ga aru

ah fumikomu dake, omoigiri,
Suikomu dake, kono shousoukan mo
Anata ga ima koko ni iru riyuu wa
Kono amaoto ga shitteru

Amaete ireba, kakeru mono ga aru
Soba ni areba, mienaku naru
Kidzukanai, sou jyanai
Itai hodo wakatteru

ah mune wo hatte, omoigiri,
Suikomu dake, kono shunkan ni mo
Anata ga ima koko ni iru riyuu wa
Kono yuusora ga shitteru

Naimono ne dari
Watashi ni wa naimono wo
Anata ga motteru hazu

ah fumikomu dake, omoigiri,
Suikomu dake, kono shousoukan mo
Anata ga ima koko ni iru riyuu wo
Kore kara mo sagashiteru


Hope All S3 can enjoy it~!!
N hope my heart will mend in time....

Ja~

A Song For TAS~

For myself, Popiah Ling, & mofu tofu
(Kanji)

波光

見て見ぬフリの毎日に慣れすぎて
ぼくは見失った
柄にもなく今日　君のやさしい言葉に
自分をひどく恥じた

水平線の向こう側が　まるでのぞけるくらい
晴れすぎた空　かげりはひとつさえない

誰かがぼくを汚した　だからぼくも
人を裏切ってきた
愛のカタチをバカらしい作り物だと
コソ\コソ\笑った

遠くで波光がゆれている
もう悲しいことも　素晴らしいことも
無理やり　ふみつぶしたくない

突然の風に目を閉じた瞬間
暗い海に　ぼくは浮かんでいた
急いで目を開けた　眩しいほどの
光がありますように…

(English)

Hakou

Having grown too used to always watching but pretending not to,
I lost sight of you
Today, without a pattern, I was severely ashamed of myself
Over your kind words

The sky doesn't have even a single cloud in it, so clear
That it's like I can peek across to the other side of the horizon

Someone defiled me, so I, too
Betrayed people
I sniggered off the concept of love
As a stupid construct

The light on the waves shimmers far away
I don't want to be forced to trample down
The sad things or the wonderful things anymore

The moment I shut my eyes against a sudden wind
I floated in a dark ocean
I hurriedly opened my eyes, praying there was a light
Bright enough to dazzle me...

For Pobiah & Todu
(Kanji)

魚

飾らずに　君のすべてと　混ざり合えそうさ　今さらね
恋人と　呼べる時間を　星砂ひとつに閉じこめた

言葉じゃなく　リズムは続く
二人がまだ　出会う前からの

くり返す波の声　冷たい陽とさまよう
ふるえる肩を抱いて　どこにも戻らない

「きっとまだ　終わらないよ」と魚になれない魚とか
幾つもの　作り話で　心の一部をうるおして

この海は　僕らの海さ
隠された　世界とつなぐ

鉛色に輝く　この海は…
隠された…　言葉じゃなく…
二人がまだ　出会う前からの
コンクリートにしみ込む　冷たい陽とさまよう
ふるえる肩を抱いて　どこにも戻らない

(English)

Sakana

At this point, it looks like I can mingle with your everything without showing off
The time that I could call you my lover, I could file onto a single speck of stardust

The rhythm, not the words, goes on
From before the two of us had even met

I'll wander with the chilly sunshine and the voice of the eternal waves
Holding your trembling shoulders, I won't go back to anywhere

Moisten a portion of my heart with lots of fables, like the one about
The fish that can't become a fish, called, "I'm sure it's not over yet"

This ocean is our ocean
It connects us to a hidden world

Shining the color of lead, this ocean...
A hidden... Not the words...
From before the two of us had even met
I'll wander with the chilly sunshine soaking into the concrete
Holding your trembling shoulders, I won't go back to anywhere

For Lavi, Shinigami, Yun, & Tomato-Lynn
(Kanji)
ハチミツ

一人空しくビスケットの　しけってる日々を経て
出会った君が初めての　心さらけ出せる

素敵な恋人ハチミツ溶かしてゆく
こごえる仔犬を　暖めて
懐かしい遊びが甦るのは
灯りの場所まで　綱渡りしたから

ガラクタばかり　ピーコートの　ポケットにしのばせて
意地っ張り　シャイな女の子　僕をにらみつける

おかしな恋人　ハチミツ溶かしてゆく
蝶々結びを　ほどくように
珍しい宝石が　拾えないなら
二人のかけらで　間に合わせてしまえ

素敵な恋人　ハチミツ溶かしてゆく
灯りの場所まで　綱渡りしたから

(English)
Hachimitsu

I've lifelessly gone through rough biscuit times all alone;
You're the first person I've met to whom I could bare my heart

A wonderful lover will melt me into honey
And warm up frozen puppies
You brought our old, familiar games back to life
Because you walked a tightrope all the way to a lit-up place

Making me hide nothing but junk in the pockets of my pea coat,
A shy, obstinate girl glares at me

A strange lover will melt me into honey
As if she's undoing a butterfly knot
If you can't find any rare jewels,
Make do with fragments, yours and mine

A wonderful lover will melt me into honey
Because she walked a tightrope all the way to a lit-up place

For Jun-Hime, Death is My Best Friend, nikku & Geoffrey Kok
(Kanji)

そろそろいかなくちゃ

なんだかどうでもよくなって午前中サボってしまった
みえすいた言い訳をしたらよけい滅入ってきた
昨日の夜彼女が食べてたポテトチップスの袋
テレビを見ながら飲んでたビールもそのままテーブルに…

さえない日々だとは思う　いろんなこと考えちゃいるけど

「電話くらいよこせ」と家族はいう
話せることは別に何もないけど
「つまらない」とよく彼女はいう
もうすぐ正午　そろそろいかなくちゃ

ドアを開けると冷たい空気がギュッと耳をつかんだ
ノブに手をかけたままぼくは息をすいこんでみる
すれちがった痩せこけた犬がぼくの方を見てニヤッと笑った
白い息がわざとらしいくらいいちいち絡みつく

週末になればもう少し　いろんなことマシになるかな

「あいしているの？」と彼女はいう
いつもうまく返事はできない
「シケた顔するな」と友達はいう
タメ息はもういい　そろそろいかなくちゃ

「大人になれよ」と誰もがいう
ぼくにしか見えないユメはもういい
「ゴメン」と口ぐせのようにぼくはいう
言い訳はいい　そろそろいかなくちゃ

(English)
Sorosoro Ikanakucha

Somehow, I've stopped caring, and I ended up skiving off all morning
When I make transparent excuses, I get way too depressed
There's the bag of potato chips that my girlfriend ate last night
And the beer I drank while watching TV just lying there on the table...

I think it's these cloudy days, although I'm mulling over all kinds of stuff

My family tells me, "At least give us a call"
Even though I don't really have anything I can talk about
My girlfriend often tells me, "This is boring"
It'll be noon in a few; I've got to get going soon

When I open the door, the cold air grabs tight hold of my ears
With my hand still on the doorknob, I try sucking in a breath
That starving dog I passed by looks over at me and barks out a laugh
To the point that it looks intentional, my white breaths coil around me one by one

When the weekend comes, will some stuff get a little better?

My girlfriend asks me, "Do you love me?"
And I can never give her a good answer
My friends tell me, "Don't look so surly"
I've had enough of sighs; I've got to get going soon

Everyone tells me, "Be a man"
I've had enough of dreams that no one but me can see
Like it's my catchphrase, I tell them, "Sorry"
Enough excuses; I've got to get going soon

For Ginseng, Zarif Ayman, Shawn, Wei Jie, Yu-An and Jon
(Kanji)
ユビキリ

校舎のうらの細い道は　そのままプールに続いていた
夏の水の色とともに　君の記憶も遠のいていく

あの日帰り道で　君とむすんだ約束は…

今もそしてこれからも　果たせないから
いつかなくしてしまうよ…
君は忘れないんだろう？　許せないよね
だから何度もふりかえった

くだらないことでムキになって　ユビキリで笑った君の顔
小さなカバンにつめたものは　結局ぼくのユメばかり

夏の水の中から　とうとう君は上がることはなく…

誰もいないプールでぼくは待ってる
君と約束したから
家に帰ろうとすると　しぶきが上がり
ぼくはその足をとめるんだ

今日いつもの廊下で　君とすれ違ったのかも

今もそしてこれからも　果たせないから
いつかなくしてしまうよ…
君は忘れないんだろう？　許せないよね
だから何度もふりかえった

(English)
Yubikiri

The narrow path behind the school continued straight towards the pool
My memories of you, along with the color of summer water, are receding

The promise that bound me to you, that day, on the way home...

Since I can't fulfill it now or anytime to come,
I wonder if someday I'll be rid of it...
You won't forget, will you? I know you can't forgive me
That's why I looked back so often

Your face, which got mad over trivial stuff and smiled about pinky swears
The stuff I packed in my tiny bag was ultimately nothing but my dreams

You've never, finally, arisen from the summer water...

I'm waiting at an empty pool
Because I promised you
When I try to go home, a splash rises up
And I stop my feet

Today, in the usual corridor, you and I might have missed each other

Since I can't fulfill it now or anytime to come,
I wonder if someday I'll be rid of it...
You won't forget, will you? I know you can't forgive me
That's why I looked back so often


It may not be accurate as poppy's, but here!!

My happy gratitude to all~!

Ja~

Problematic Headache of Feeling So Worthless

Sigh....... depression sets in. The fact that I can do nothing right sets in again...... =<--3 (meaning sighing)
Feel like crashing the mirror into uncountable pieces.... feel like jz slashing my throat whenever the scissors near me.... feel like breaking apart and hating myself till the time ends..... & feel like jz being unable to do anything nw....
Im so emo now~~ i really feel like hating....regretting......n, well, naturally making my life end......so.......quickly!

I shall not furthur my talk.....

I shall leave....



Ja~

AFA Trip!!!! XDD & A Forgotton Time!

I went to AFA, at SG, together with my club, TAS~! Very fun!! Got to enjoy the H&C ferris wheel, got to hang out with ppl, n most of all..... got to be free from a lot of things!! XDD bought some stuff....


(Wat i bought... ==)


(My H&C fantasy~!! XD)

After came back.... kena tembak wei!! >>.<< parents started to rant on how they didnt do sumthin la... so noisy... alas my life returns~

I consulted Libra.... n reached to a decision! Taking chem. engineering liao, n im nt changing!! Nw i have to consult Leo and Aquarius to have luck... to go to NUS with the MOE grant!! /me pray like hell


(So frustrating!!!!)

This hols.... my tamashii was ripped into half.... have fun la... but then the burden was there.... maybe i'd go on a soul-searching trip in my dreams.... something like Takemoto!! XDD


(Like this, travel all arnd~!! XDD)

Thats all i can say, for now.... c y'all~!!
Ja~

SAM PROM NITE~!!! A NIGHT TO REMEMBER AND A NIGHT TO SCREAM!!!!

YEAH!!!!! Ermhmm.... ok! (composure returns).
On Wed I had SAM Prom Night. Me and the entire S3 was sitting next to each other, making it all the more happy!!!

I was wearing that mask above... I know~ it sux~!! Anyway~! ITs original!!! MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

To tell the truth, the food SUCKED!!! and half of my RM120 was placed in the picture down below!! DArn wei~!


N then got performances lor~! See only while eating horrible food lor~! N then... aiya, the usual clapping~!!
S3's YAM SENG was friggin long..... i think we did 15 minutes ahahaha uniqueness wei!! XD


This was my only souvenir left.... a flower from the teachers' VVIP area!! XDD

Ok~ tats all.... no nid so detail wan

Ja~!